with aimless Aim*

Before started my adv.dip stage,
it could be hard for me to perceive as : Adv.Dip is tough for undergoing!
Even though the course has been starting,
Wheu! Just consisting of 4 subjects. How HARD could it be? i wonder suspiciously~
But NOW, waThe FucKz! - my internal feeling

""--As a capable student, u should be able to dominate it--""
[ started Dip < i though i was < ended Dip ]
This was the interval of period where the handsome thought of "i'm not as that bad" was always occupying my Mind & my Soul.
my fuCk*ingBody, sometimes.

That might be sound a bit arrogant ...big-head... high self-esteem by saying so
(someone said :"YOU ARE!" to me before )
i'm totally not tat kind of Fucking Fu*Cker! ok?!!! Plssz
tat is called "Self-Confidence"

Now, it's the time to wake myself up from sweetie dreaming
''i'm just another unremarkable learner''
"Just another ordinary student"
"Another simple teen"

WeLL~ meaning to say, i shouldn't be too aggressive with the learning outcome.
I SHOULDN'T!
By aiming a target for attainment, wa-t-he Fuck*-est tiring act! wat could be the returns? Scholarship? yaa, it could be right before adv.dip. Study so hard just for the sake of obtaining tat stupid rewards since i owe my parents a big sum of money. Deducted from tat idiotic scholarship i'm holding.
But now, this motivator has gone. No longer exists.

Self-esteem?
FucK it Down! I dont hav any self-esteem.
I'm cheap, i admit. But priceless

WAT HE FuCKz!! from now onwards, sinister forefeeling of keep applying Maslow's Hierarchy Needs Theory to my simple life grows and develops. ARGHHHH!!! DAMN IT many many times!!! MASLOW! U MAK MY LIFE SO COMPLICATED !

To me, self-conscious is the fundamental principal i used to be sticked with.
why not i create another Theory by myself?
and named it as "ikyblueboy's Self-Conscious Theory" !
WooO! NICE !
Going to tak a deep analysis on it. Follwed by constructing a Diagram!