Sable Assassin (s)

Hang myself out with
Sable assassins, somtimes.
REALLY somtimes~

Just Don't wanna Be
the killing target~
Fuck-ed!

They tend not to be such DMAN
cool-blooded till
killing 'someone' who
hang out with them once in a month bah??=.=!!!
at point-blank range...

Over-Nitez

Bird oF Team

24 Friday nitez & 25 Saturday morning
July 2009
Genting Highlands Trip
An overnight trip
A team of overnight bird-guests
8

Graduation Ceremony

Today was my convo day ["was" or "is" , i confused! ]

Personally, i dislike such kind of formal convocation
yesterday nitez i ever think tat 'better absent myself bah' ~
but i know i won't
No matter how unwilling the feeling is ,
i know i SHOULD attend ..tats wat i SHOULD do.
Reason triumphed in the end. Emotions pk-ed.
Characteristic of Aquarius. 理智 》 感情 [ i hate this characteristic ]

A number of ppl asked me whether my parents or frens would come
"no," i answered.
All responsed with surprised eXpression & questioned-faces~

My family & frens knew my Convo
I seem never invite them to attend my convo FOrmally
maybe i'm TOO BAD by doing so
to me, it's oK they did not presenting themselves
maybe i'm TOO BAD again by saying so

Let's make it Clear
i didnt mind they come
i didnt feel tat they are unimportant to me

Just becauze i'm such kind of person
tat would feel i had troubled them by asking to come
since they may worry my feeling wouldbe hurt
if they didnt attend.
They can be forced to come just for the sake of comforting my feel.
I GUESS I THINK i know tat my parents dislike to come ,
but they could be proud of their son who is GRADUATED !

Of my frens,
some of them for sure will come if i asked them.
However, it's just a simple convo to me
and i would take photos here & there with college peer~
i dont wish tat my frens are being ignored.
Yet, there was a obstinate fren [kelvin feifei] datang sendiri leh!! STUPID!
Never listen me... .. . Naughty boy~
[juz a photo we both hav taken... FucK!]
And,
i felt 'SORRY' to [ Snowman LoonLoon ]
a simple ... real ... innocent guy , my fren
Remember the nitez we ate before get to Genting , u asked :
"someone has invited me to attend the convo, right?"
and i replied u by saying : "No..im not the one invite u...[feifei asked u de]"
Errrr.....i didnt mean it all all.
I SURELY know tat u would come if i asked u
since it was high % u may come, tats why i hav said such unpolite words to u to STOP u.
Several times i kept talking back to u when V gathered outside...
... tried so Damn hard to quarrel with u .
Tats not my real-side feeling to u... [ hope u see my words ]

U guys Plz dont be hurt by my act...plss

Next
my class team members : H.N.T
u guys really ah~~~ make me so .... .... at a loss!
wat should i responsed to u guys?
DAMN DMAN feeling !!! but tends to positive side
tat 6 yellow flowers ... err... so-so lah~ [how much ah tat flower ???]
REALLY surprised me tat u guys would do such heart-touching thing~
U guys already grow uP much!
under my lead .



Another one was my beloved babe~
Erm... ..about u..
[typing at here... i keeping smiling]
u will still remain on the important position
at the corner of my heart.

- Find me anytime
if u need my mind... soul... even my body -

BaNaNa

yesterday having our Eng presentation
6 involvers

1st - Disney
2nd - Organ donation
3rd - Sanitary napkin
4th - "I need u"
5th - Condom
6th - Magic

Well... by looking at the TOpic we had chosen
undeniably 'Organ donation' wouldBe the most FUc*King FucK*ed Boring topic
waht century right now oh?!!! such boring topic aslo come out~~ Stunned.

Of course, im not the ONE who choose this topic!!!
im not tat SUckZ...K~?
Lucas choose it de. Indeed, im quite different from him
PLZ DON'T EVER MIXED ME　uP with HIM !!!

Personally,
i quite enjoyed myself in "Condom" by Melody
She did a GREAT JOB!
im not meant how well she presented it
But the topic she choose able to raise up my seXual Lust !
In the DEMO part,
3 persons tried so hard to enter the
8-inch long , 2.5-inch width & 2-inch thickness cucumber
into the light red condom.
Strawberry flavor.
FANTASTIC Show!
I DAMn FucK*ing Like It!

Another topic i was interested in : MAGIC
im not so engaged myself in learning it
but evey time someone show off the maGic
im so admiring of them
Never touch never actaul see
a Magic card before,
i did yesterday. Sodeska ~
and he promised to teach me on Monday.
[Actually i forced him de.]
Wait & see ... ...

Ermmnn.. of Lucas's presentation
even though the comment from the tutor not so tat bad
hwoever,
i felt tat his performance .... can't say it was sucKz,
but so-so only~

Honestly,
there was something he said was wrong when answering the question
from the most sex-est girl in our class.
sex organ can be transplanted?
FucK it oFF!

__________________________

i got a FOC condom in banana flavor~
-DureX-
BRAVO!

BEScore Ever !

Today.
After-Test.
Back-Home.
Bedroom.
Sleep.
Wake uP.
sUckz feel.

i thought i was able to escape myself
from the torturing feel
but I just CAN"T.
FAILED.

Yaa. i luv compliment, i admit.
i luv admiring sight from others, i admit too.
i luv all these flaunty things
tat's why any test or eXam marks muzb e above my own average.
You know my average mark i set for myself?
U know? FUc*K U!

PO, one of my subjects
would be my 1st high rate of chance failure-able subject
im telling no lie, but
truth.
I never thought tat this kind of crisis
would occur on me.
Well .... ..."What Fuc*King arrogant guy u are! ". u may say so.
Go ahead. I luv dirty.
Givme your dirt.

My fren asked me this afternoon,
".... how many fuck*ing % scholarship u this fucker get?!"
he comes from R & G company.

now and here,
wanna claim tat :
Going to lose my scholarship if i failed my 1st paper in Adv.Dip.
My mom concerned this crucial issue much as well.
i was being blamed.

Out of 40 , my best score
will be below 10.
if u dont like it, "must be" wouldbe another alternative way to depict it.

END. and OVER.

Tomorow, my Eng presentation.
In fuc*kiNG forcing myself out of blue gloomy eMo
and entering another. eMo

Hopefully.
u wont see MORE damn it & DAmn tat again
of my presentation on the day after tonitez' loneliness.

- i insist in luving myself tonitez-
no matter how my performance "was - is - will be"

How am i Going to console myself
you can only successfully guess it by using....
yr fuCKing* dirty mind-map!

我的华语字

每次写的时候都用全部英文
好像很久很久都没用华语了
今天感觉奇怪不知道怎样的
所以就突然用起华语来写这
我都知道我的华语不是好好
却还是很有努力学一些新的
可是就不知做么就是学不来
我爸妈看见我这样很是心伤
每次在我面前都好像可脸我
我没什么好的天分不像别人
在朋友面前都觉得自己很低
因为他们都能用华语来写子
每个朋友都写得很滑很不错
看他们的字时我很多都不会
虽然他们没有在我面前笑我
好才是这样不然我会觉得丑
平常看到小我很多的小孩子
他们的华语level都比我很高
我的身体不知道怎样脸会红
有时想为什么没读华语中校
如果有读的话我就厉害华语
不会像现在这样说着怪华语
华人不像华人也不像英文人
写了出自己想的觉得好很多
谢谢你们用时间读我的写字
我会努力做个真真的华人的！

i'm No.2

Today 2 tutors asked for tests
one was English case study
another was web programming
so i simply took loh ( pretending relaXx~)

Right now,
i found a lot of regret(sssssss) that can NOT be erased anymor
FuC*K this & Fu*Ck that !!!
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

if.... if... Time reverse and i hav another chance
to accomplish it again
with a more Perfect answer,
i ... i .... will FuC*K it oFF!
DMAN!

Corrections:
- int donation = txtdonation.Text; [it should be string, not int]
- "Donation:" + donation; [thought it was int or double, added in .ToString()]
- ; > + [the most irritated typing error mistake i made ]
- Response.Redirect = (......) [ no "=" symbol and i added it]
- elect gender [typing error for error msg part]
- error msg...equal to 0 [0 should be 10]
- Error msg: The entered value must be... [not meaningful enough !]
- validation summary with limited space [should be heighten it more]


To a certain extent,
i tend to be a PERFECTIONIST
nevertheless, i failed + fail + will be fail continuously .......... to be a successful perfextionist!
It requires qualifications
Not 'U want to be' ' U can be'!
i admit it is my own fate ~
i always relate such fate with my Chinese Name :以涵 (it sounds like 遗憾)
and eveytime my frens will look at me when this '遗憾' term occurs in lyric whenever we sing KKK~~ WooWO~~
[u will find this term in many songsss~~ FUc*K it uP!]

Anyhow,
i luv this name and
enjoy myself to be the 2nd !!!
Im the 2nd!
(oh yah! today's English presentation drawing i got '20')

To be PERFECT is the motivation to push ourselves proceed forwards, yet
we will never BE !
Never ever.

"Number 1"
by Tinchy Stryder

A view of my BlueBack

Sometimes,
it could
be
hard for u
facing the cam
with
yr back figure

Just
because
u R
too
satisfied with
yr own
face-side
appearance
.

-No Objection-

Let's STOP it !

Today really really not a nice day!
In translating to my language:
It was just A DAMN SHI*T FUc*kING DAY!!

Fuc*K it OFF & oFF !!

the early morning class was canceled
well! this shouldn't be blamed on. My beloved tutor was sicked. oh yah! he looks like Sammo Hung JIn Bao neh~~

The worse thing was my schoolbag was being stolen by her
luckily i finally unexpectedly successfully took revenge on her! She was laughing there. =.=

The worse worse thing was i was being blamed by her =.= (sorry lah. my babe~ i know it was my fault. i shouldn't be too late there to help u.)
The worse point here is tat "I'm unable to perform well enoguh to comfort ppl around me".
Not the one who blamed me. Make it CLEAR!

The worse worse worse thing was "Silence must BE heard!" by her. Not intend to talk much on this matter. i wouldbe the only ONE who listened to the 'Silence'.
Same here. Listen to it was not the worse point but the event i was listening to a bit pessimistic.

The worse worse worse worse thing is i stomach ache at school and till now my stomach still feeling not well. Ate a lot rubbish at school, as wat Bryant described, i'm a Dustbin. And i depicted him as "Dustbin Cover". So close relationship right? He said he liked this metaphora~ DAMN IT!

Another thing was about asking me whether should he searchs for sex toy image in front of his fren's sister. For SUre, i said: "NO!"
But u know wat he said?
U couldnt guess it Forever!
He replied:"WHy not? Im going to surprise her! Maybe sth unexpected event would happen on me leh!"
WAT THE FUC*K of him! IT is A SHAME to recognise such dirty-minded FUck*ing Dude!

ALL this fuc*king matter were juz a piece of cake i made juzt now in the toilet. Black in color , mixed up with a bit chocolate~ FuC*King Delicious!

The worst thing was i hav became a laughing-stock in the ECM tutorial class today.
at the end of class, i thought i was alert to the point and i pointed it out. who knows i was in wrong direction!
It was totally an INSULT to me. I flushed crimson with embarrasment!

ALL were painted in BLUE today
Gloomy blue...

_____________________________________________

'Her' above referred to different kind species of her.

in the dustbin : sandwich, sweetened lotus seed paste pau (lian rong bao), milk, herbal soup mee, milo-flavour cup ice-cream, a standing-cup chocolate ice-cream...
(the killing point is i ate herbal soup mee followed by two ice-creams which one of the ice-creams was bought for my babe, but u know... she... oh! it was all my fault! hope it won't be too late to apologize~ it's too late~~~ )

and i WANNA sing KKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !

Pre - face of Trip

Back from somewhere
Going to absent from school tomorrow

Feeling SuckZz right now!!!

with aimless Aim*

Before started my adv.dip stage,
it could be hard for me to perceive as : Adv.Dip is tough for undergoing!
Even though the course has been starting,
Wheu! Just consisting of 4 subjects. How HARD could it be? i wonder suspiciously~
But NOW, waThe FucKz! - my internal feeling

""--As a capable student, u should be able to dominate it--""
[ started Dip < i though i was < ended Dip ]
This was the interval of period where the handsome thought of "i'm not as that bad" was always occupying my Mind & my Soul.
my fuCk*ingBody, sometimes.

That might be sound a bit arrogant ...big-head... high self-esteem by saying so
(someone said :"YOU ARE!" to me before )
i'm totally not tat kind of Fucking Fu*Cker! ok?!!! Plssz
tat is called "Self-Confidence"

Now, it's the time to wake myself up from sweetie dreaming
''i'm just another unremarkable learner''
"Just another ordinary student"
"Another simple teen"

WeLL~ meaning to say, i shouldn't be too aggressive with the learning outcome.
I SHOULDN'T!
By aiming a target for attainment, wa-t-he Fuck*-est tiring act! wat could be the returns? Scholarship? yaa, it could be right before adv.dip. Study so hard just for the sake of obtaining tat stupid rewards since i owe my parents a big sum of money. Deducted from tat idiotic scholarship i'm holding.
But now, this motivator has gone. No longer exists.

Self-esteem?
FucK it Down! I dont hav any self-esteem.
I'm cheap, i admit. But priceless

WAT HE FuCKz!! from now onwards, sinister forefeeling of keep applying Maslow's Hierarchy Needs Theory to my simple life grows and develops. ARGHHHH!!! DAMN IT many many times!!! MASLOW! U MAK MY LIFE SO COMPLICATED !

To me, self-conscious is the fundamental principal i used to be sticked with.
why not i create another Theory by myself?
and named it as "ikyblueboy's Self-Conscious Theory" !
WooO! NICE !
Going to tak a deep analysis on it. Follwed by constructing a Diagram!